Sunday, March 17, 2019

A pleasant surprise

8:17:00 AM
Jie and I have been talking about our life plans. So much that we have somehow put our life on “stand still” as we wait for the fulfillment of our plans.

After a few months. we decided that we must not put our life on hold. Life goes on while we fulfill our plans. Let the Lord do the rest. After such a decision, a very pleasant surprise came.

Without Jie's knowledge, I bought some tests and on March 15, it was confirmed!

I was ecstatic. Though we have not really planned for it, we have talked about giving JE a playmate. After all, she is already 2 years old.

I tried again the  following day, and the result came back the same. A bit faded but still.... I couldn't contain my excitement. But I kept everything to myself. I don't know when I would tell Jie. However, when we were at Starbucks that time and Kristel, Noreen and the rest were joking about it, I couldn't help but blurt it out.

Jie was shocked! Hahaha. I wished I could have caught his face on camera. It was a good day. And I couldn't wait to hold my new baby in my arms.

I went to to my high school friend, and also my OB-GYN the following day. She was very happy and excited for me. She gave me prescription for folic and calcium, as well as request for a transvaginal ultrasound. She computed that I was at 6 weeks.

Jie immediately bought all the prescription and even decided to buy branded supplements instead of the generic ones. Life is good.

Thursday, March 7, 2019

The Familiar vs The Unknown

3:22:00 AM
I am not a risk taker. I don’t think I am. I am always comforted with the tried and tested, with the safe. With what I know. My morning drive, for example is always the same way, the same road. When I walk, I take the same road, every day. Since it is the familiar, I sometimes walk with my head bowed down, no longer noticing whatever is in front of me. I just know that I need to walk. I know what’s already in front of me.
But there are moments that I want something new. Or I want to think for a while. So I sometimes turn and take a different route. During these times, my head is help up high. I notice a lot of things. During these times too, I have something to share — about the new route, what I noticed, anything that I have not seen before.
Still, I always go back to my “normal”.
It’s safe.
It’s worry-free.
But lately, I have been thinking…
Is my “normal” route, the only route? Maybe there is another road worth looking into? Still I falter.
I am scared of the unknown.
I remember a recent conversation with a dear friend…
I hesitate.
But I know I must venture into it.
One step at a time into the unknown.

One step at a time is all it takes to get you there – Emily Dickinson

One day I would look back on all of these, head help up high, with lots of stories to share, just because  I have taken a different route.
In the meantime, pause, breathe in and out. And most importantly, pray for my route.




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